well it happened...tonight while we were at Mass...right after Miss Courtney received Communion...around 5:45 p.m...while I was praying the Anima Christi with her as we do every time she receives Our Lord...her hands curled in...her legs stiffened...her eyes rolled back...and the seizure came...rolling over her like a freight train...two loooooong minutes of jerking, choking, gagging horrific, lips turning white...and then just as quickly as it started...it was over...she took a deep breath and turned her head toward me and smiled...letting me know it was all OK...it's not what we wanted but it's what will be...we will continue with the med draw down plan for now...if more seizures come than we may have to stop decreasing the Depakote...only time will tell...Mama did not freak out...probably because I had just received Our Lord myself...Daddy did not freak out...it will be what it will be...she is still smiling and yelping and giving us what for...but we will re-start that seizure-free record clock over...four hours and counting seizure free...thank you for being there to pray...and hug and encourage us with your words...we are still standing...still trusting in HIS plan for our girl...still looking to the Cross for our help is on the Lord...still loving our daughter as she fights the good fight...and being loved in return by Our Savior...knowing in the end...she is HIS...and so are we...
St Augustine said: "If God seems slow in responding, it is because He is preparing a better gift. He will not deny us. God withholds what you are not yet ready for. He wants you to have a lively desire for His greatest gifts. All of which is to say, pray always and do not lose heart."
St France deSales said: "Do not look forward in fear to the changes of life; rather look to them with full hope that as they arise, God, whose very own you are, will lead you safely through all things; and when you cannot stand it, God will carry you in His arms. Do not fear what may happen tomorrow; the same everlasting Father who cares for you today, will take care of you then and every day. He will either shield you from suffering or will give you unfailing strength to bear it. Be at peace and put aside all anxious thoughts and imaginings."